Wanting to go back on T but nervous

So context: I had started transitioning back around early spring of the last year, but due to a lot of internal issues I got scared and detransitioned. I wasn’t on T for very long anyways so it didn’t make a big difference. Now, I’m tired of being scared and I wanna live as my true self so I wanna go back on T. I originally got on through planned parenthood, but like a dumbass I pretty much ghosted my doctor. No one reached out further either, but I never made my follow up and fell off the radar. Would they still take me on as a patient, or do y’all think I’d have a harder time and would just be better off finding a new clinic? Idk if I have like rejection sensitivity or something but the idea of them viewing my case differently because of the ghosting makes me nervous.