What’s next and will it stop? Suicide and insurance, will it pay out?

I’m a 30+ year federal employee and 1/3 of that as us military member. I feel this pain and I’m so sorry for everyone’s loss.

There have been rumors rolling around about probably RIF, and facility closure. Which means no matter what I would be “collateral damage” as there are no agency facilities within the 50 mile radius for me to move to.

I have never been a remote worker, except the times we were not allowed into our facility during covid.

I have been having those suicide thoughts. Not PTSD or anything, I’m just the opposite very rational and logical in my thinking. I’m a normal hard working employee that give 150%, I’m the person that puts in 10-20 hours every week off the books, as there is never enough time to complete the work.

but being 6 years from MRA retirement. If RIF happens, who can afford to live on 1/4 of your pay? Until you hit MRA, and who’s hiring seniors? I have always been the soul provider for the family.

The 5x payment on the life insurance, is what has got me thinking hard, I talked with my spouse, and I promised I wouldn’t do anything without her knowing first, But it is always weighing as an option on the table to ensure she is taken care of.

I mean if my hard work won’t pay off in retirement. Then… maybe before I’m canned…

So I can understand the thought process behind the decision. You work work work, to end up with a knife in the back. It’s like seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and then they shut it off right before you get there. yes we need efficiency in government.

But we don’t need the blame of appointees decisions placed on the federal workforce.

Because the fraud waste and abuse by appointees and they do not equal federal workers, we are not the same.

I assume you still get paid life insurance even for suicide?