NSFW - i want a girlfriend so bad arghh

okay not to be freaky ahh but i’m 21F and never had a girlfriend before and ughhh i just feel so touch starved😭😭 like i’ve never held a girls hand in a romantic context or kissed a girl… i just want a girl to treat like a princess and give her forehead kisses and kiss her stomach and just make her feel amazing 😭😭 and i feel like something about playing with a girls hair is something so erotic if yk what i mean 😩😩 i’ve been hearing about lesbian sex and different positions like face sitting and 69ing and ugh i want to try it so bad and also other positions but at the same time i don’t want to rush into a relationship like i want to have it at the right time😌 but gosh IM SO LONELY LOL. also idk if im into hookup culture i’d rather get to know a girl really well before jumping into sex